Black Heart Friends

How do you define insanity,

Ramblings of chaos or illusions calamity,

Mine lurks deep in my mind all the time,

Awakened by horror no escape just more,

Visual decay imagine flesh melt disarray,

Pictures during the day only add to the fray,

Unstoppable demons clench my mind no reason,

I try to halt the slaughter but they laugh harder,

Pushing their death before my eyes black heart demise,

It became black from how often they occur and attack,

Can't deter insidious fever polluted delusion demeanor,

My black heart friends take a piece of me easily,

I have no control they simply drill their hole,

So during the day people laugh when I say,

No horror movies I can't feed them they don't go away,

Don't be ridiculous it's just fake cinema,

The black heart friends deal blood no replica,

A vast ocean so dark like a million horror novels,

Seas of corpses tramp and tear gore ridden brothels,

I used to think video games were safer,

You see movies portrayed reality more easy to occur,

Fine for a while until I mocked and they opened the file,

The cheesy graphics became so real out of this world surreal,

I challenged and the black heart friends made me their meal,

It only happens late at night about to sleep,

Close my eyes and black heart friends creep,

Leap before my eyes I turn away but no reprise,

Change of thought but still they fought,

Like a slideshow with your eyes taped open,

Replaying over and over horrific violent woven,

Because you see that did happen to me,

My step-brother's family unrelated no sympathy,

I was so young and dreaded anything remotely terrible,

An innocent inquiry turned into haunted memorable,

Come watch you will enjoy,

No please don't tie me I'm just little boy,

I close my eyes but eyelids taped to forehead,

Repressed the whole thing but black heart friends never did