Everything isn't enough

Spread me thin like your favorite jam,

I will lend a hand whenever I can,

Appease them and rarely get to myself,

Take a step but retreat back to my shelf,

High expectations you know I will try,

Break down the barriers and pile them high,

Ask me for anything the shirt off my back,

I would even give you that which I lack,

Because I can't quite make up for how selfish I've been,

Dosing my brain with apathy with reckless abandon

Wired

Trace the wires bound to cause,

Ripples in belief gaping maws,

Exist on this plane of anonymity,

Shrouded by obscurity lyrically,

Eyes narrow with the dim glow,

Although I can see more clearly,

Nearly exhausted continue wearily,

My path is unpaved yet I am unscathed,

Escaped the torture tents waylaid,

Count the blessings of disaster stayed,

Emerge from the inferno of speculation,

Analytical reservation claims my station,

Await the epiphany with lackluster symphony,

Pins and needles riddle me with no difficulty,

A spine retract as the horrors reap reflect,

This shield is sturdy a crisis is checked

Hypochondriac

A mind that twists with every motion,

Convince myself that I am choking,

Nocebo I think at first but who knows,

The hypochondria tragically grows,

Am I creating this disease or is it real,

Manifest uncertainty it all seems surreal,

Floating in an abyss of my own creation,

Still waters boil into explosion,

Positive thoughts turn corrupt,

Any effort to sustain runs amuck,

Evidence crystal clear succumb to fear,

Focus on the solution ever so near,

How many pieces can I let fall away,

Search for the elusive answers astray,

What is left when I look in the mirror,

A ghostly visage of someone I once held dear

At least we got good parking

A scene so clean I manipulate the dream,

Cast off doubt and reveal how obscene,

Linger a moment but don't stray far,

Eclipse the wisdom and reduce to char,

Ashes disperse as the cold wind blows,

Who knows where this road actually goes,

Dodge the fire that strikes from rose,

A fragile dragon at first turns hostile,

The armor cracks and starts to buckle,

Onslaught onset with casual dismissal,

Visceral reaction subdue the riddle,

Ask myself time and time again,

Why pursue when this is not my end,

An alien surrounded by constant normality,

Abstract reality collides with society,

What is the result when all just lie to me,

Shallow existence with arrogant mentality

Ground Zero

Unleash fury as targets shelter scurry,

Falling phantoms reap fire clearly,

Clouds so hot they scorch the skin,

Catalysts spark ignite explosion,

Burn through matter glass shatter,

Run but can't escape mad hatter,

Chasing quick as holes erupt thick,

Take cover but it blows apart too,

Glance to the sides think what to do,

Comrades in arms without their arms,

Blasted to pieces no lucky charms,

Crawl on the ground to seek safety,

Shrapnel rips through so easily,

Why can't I get up no matter how hard I try,

Lying in the dust as storm clouds roil by

Invincible Threat

Cast your head toward the sky,

Black clouds loom lurking by,

Rend our defenses completely senseless,

A storm of swords has swerved off course,

Chaos unravel the threads of time,

Winding down the breaking line,

The more you fight the more it constricts,

Choking the essence and all betwixt,

Eyes go wide as the blade descends,

Harking heavy to cleanse our sins,

A mortal wound that is well deserved,

Unnerve the riddles the jester curved,

Wrapped around a finger all hopes decay,

Wasted the effort the cause fell astray,

Wash away the poison lest allow betray,

Sire the bringer of death today,

For my sword can't fight this unseen phantom,

The invincible threat stands our faith abandon

Downward Dirge

Slithering silk sings softly still,

Withering wilts with wind wake will,

Power plays placate pure position,

Violate visions vex vile volition,

Wishing why won't worry weaken,

Leaves linger listless life lesson,

Myriad martyrs make mortal mistakes,

Fickle felons fool faster for fakes,

Humans hold hate hints horror honed,

Bringer bans barren bold bitter boned,

Gaping grins give gritty grimace,

Soul sinks slow sorrow surely sickness

Game of Life

Paint our faces with red like blood,

Stir the fear as our boots thud,

March across the field with murderous course,

The enemy will rally to deter our force,

Break away before impact to sow confusion,

Goal in sight with calm precision,

The teeth will fly as bodies fall dead,

Bones will snap from toe to head,

Serve the cause with bloodthirsty laws,

Grind the hate in deep without a pause,

An eye for an eye and blood for blood,

The rivers of death calamitous flood,

Assassin on the brink when riot ensue,

Shoot the arrow as flesh rips through,

Victory is life and defeat only death,

Walk away when nobody is left,

For to play by their rules is to already lose,

Movers and shakers hang the world by a noose

Set phasers to stoned

Can you hear that roaring sound,

Like a rocket taking off from the ground,

High as a kite destination the moon,

Shot after shot sobriety leaves soon,

Shotgun a beer for good measure,

A couple bong tokes for my leisure,

Wobbling as I'm walking down the street,

Step by step I can't even see my feet,

What fantastic world is this before me,

Still climbing this toxic cloud slowly,

Floating in bliss thoughts scramble won't miss,

Form a sentence with slurs slipping senses,

I think I'll pull the brakes on this cruise,

Chilling in space absent formal excuse

As good as it gets

Awake from slumber as thoughts tumble,

Hello reality nice to meet you,

Been gone for a time without a clue,

Let me wash my face this dirty disgrace,

The black rot slips away from this place,

Eddies of darkness a spiral of fate,

Languid and leery of shadow checkmate,

Take your time there is no rush friend,

So many levels of hell we have yet to descend,

What awaits beyond that looming gate of doom,

Carrion swarm quickens like blood flower bloom,

The hands fall away the angel is vacant,

Greetings to remnant revenant with wide tooth grin,

Wicked whispers soaked in swirls of sin,

Absent the counter the mind swims in the muck,

Steadily drowning as thoughts turn corrupt,

Gasp for air yet only hate seeps in,

Shrouded in evils that lounge within,

Take a moment to see as the ocean swallows me,

Lying awake with my bitter reality

Venom Decision

Mortal affliction a slow decay,

Born one day and drift away,

Here to stay but time swings betray,

Pendulum rock steady with thunder dismay,

Mind the hurricane of turbulent wax,

Tracks unclear yet follow mishaps,

Counting down as the sheep steadily drown,

Round the town with a cyclical sound,

Spinning and grinning take it in stride,

Ride the waves of the coming tide,

If the decision turns venom take a step back,

Renew the attack after pause reaps reflect,

Reject the inertia I will halt my motion,

Frozen in place yet the world picks up pace,

The wind may crash yet the statue stone still,

Brutal brings bash barely born at will,

If the world does end no more time to kill

Shooting Star in the Grass

Thoughts swim in anguish so close yet so far,

To count the times like a penny in a jar,

Stabbing my heart like a stake in the mud,

Lustful whispers of voices dull thud,

Silky smooth I freeze in your presence,

Weary of anxiety yet my courage relents,

A brief glimpse of every occasion I see,

The chances for flesh seem to fly over me,

Why can't I speak it's as if I am dead,

Words normally flow free but now hide in my head,

No job to mention no scholastic pursuit,

What answers to give with an honest man's boot,

I curse this plague that eats my mind,

Reaping seeds of sorrow with teeth that grind,

One day I will be healthy and strong,

I'll have my career and write my song,

No longer afflicted with an empty life,

To have that which I've wanted maybe even a wife,

Eventually a family that I can provide,

To see them grow I will swell with pride,

I focus on the future these hopes held dear,

Try not to worry and succumb to fear,

For life is a journey so fast and so brief,

Tis better to enjoy my time than wallow in grief

Isla Vista

A train deliver destination true,

A Halloween night near ocean so blue,

The sun will set the streets are full,

The sea of people with anarchy to rule,

Scantily clad costumes half-naked bliss,

Walk and you'll see a time not to miss,

Alcohol flows like the rivers of creation,

A wall of liquor to quench a nation,

Next stop study hall till we drop,

Head back to the pad to rise on top,

Unexpected depart we just got here,

Oh well maybe I'll have better luck next year