Compassion

What drives the need for compassion,

Rise above yet I still let it happen,

Resolved to only focus on brightness,

Cracks in armor rend weak deny this,

No expression a stern poker face,

Illicit emotion cast away this place,

Keep your chin to the sky good to live by,

Even when the demons cling onto the lie,

I was once told I had a fake laugh,

Better to try on my own behalf,

I'd rather make the attempt than sorrow stupor,

I'd rather make amends than deliver crueler,

I don't ask for help I won't talk about myself,

I'd rather ask you what's wrong help you off that shelf,

I'd rather ignore what's happened before,

For compassion is something I choose to give,

Even if it's foreign for me to live

Medical Anguish

Clock set early I must depart,

Fix my thoughts and where to start,

Clerk asks what's the problem sir,

A disheveled demeanor I have no answer,

You know I've pondered that same question,

Puzzled for weeks a mindless session,

A bedridden youth I have pain everyday,

This tumor of foot can't be kept at bay,

These fleshy protrusions that hang from my sides,

Ache so much I want to cut them off despise,

Or is it of greater concern,

Years of hernias a hole that burn,

Which do I pick for today's exam,

One at a time the county's master plan,

You tell me oh bringer of hope,

What shelf will be brushed to cope,

Have a seat for you will be called,

The hours pass yet the help has stalled,

Maybe if I scream you will hear my voice,

Instead of my pleas fallen deaf no choice,

What does it take for my message to be clear,

Perhaps if I drop dead in this lobby right here

Dreams of the Fallen

Cut the losses before the bridge burn,

Shed away unless no place to turn,

Follow the discipline that dwells within,

Rebel against the darkness drowned in sin,

Wake for the brilliant rise of the sun,

Glowing rays seep the bones that run,

Sharpen the steel with razor teeth,

Grind the flesh of enemies beneath,

Set in your mind you have already died,

When the time comes no place to hide,

The cold grasp snatch at the last gasp,

Visions cloud the bloody barrage,

Corpses strewn a visceral visage,

Blind to the horror that lies before,

The sands of time trickle the last line,

A glimpse of beauty with lustful lace,

Death deals flowers a final taste,

For only one thought prevails in this dim space,

The everlasting wanting of her soft embrace

Trip to take

Arrive to hospital I know so well,

Empty my pockets where weapons dwell,

A test of nerve in ways more than one,

Electric surges up my arms no fun,

What is this redness that seems to run,

Oh just the penalty of sitting in the sun,

A train gets delayed leaving me dismayed,

Ticket already purchased funds are paid,

No answer to the constant pain,

Doctors tried but it was all in vain,

A waste of time and not only mine,

Those who were burdened by my health's decline,

The cycle continues I want to quit,

Do I pursue good health or force submit,

The question grows blurry effort useless,

How to get a job when your hands are worthless

Best served warm

Circle of cruelty like the clockwork surely,

Orange in color but bleeds to red,

Shedding sin within forced out of head,

Grapple with violence this vivid horror show,

Those once harmed will return to those they know,

Only to lash out at strangers in place of dangers,

The wicked cycle consumes a victim left marooned,

The forsaken island where lies the truth,

Uncover the buried knowledge even if uncouth,

To heal those wounds do not inflict more,

Swallow the pride and continue to soar,

The higher path awaits if you choose to ignore,

Petty revenge never serves justified mends,

Relentless acquisition of infernal tribulation,

What remains after the deranged have salvation,

The minute hole festered into a gaping tooth jester,

Blind in the snowstorm of lustful death swarm,

Restore common sense with the drops of rain,

Singing and laughing time and time again

Twilight

Out of breath the steps grow weary,

Gather the strength yet it falls dreary,

Curse the intellect that plagues my mind,

Unable to convince anymore too unkind,

Walk alone through the dismal fog,

The chirping of others falls deaf bog,

Pieces fall away the spirit also decay,

Mortal flesh withers as time drifts away,

Immune to solace it laughs in it's place,

That light is shining but it fell behind no trace,

Acceptance takes a while it took away my smile,

Give in to the feelings of death's long mile,

Ill of fate a quick end not deliver,

Scatter the ashes as hopes and dreams dither,

Where did it go that amazing spark,

I recall it once but now seems so dark,

The faded twilight looms overhead,

Waiting just as I to fall over dead

Toll

Just one more drink some time to think,

Maybe a little smoke till I choke,

Eyes begin to water with laughter,

Buzz will fade only sorrow after,

Chase that high with blind faith,

As if I will catch the shadow wraith,

Out the corner of my eye till I die,

Dead fingers yearn for that last lie,

The self-deception of day to day strangulation,

Plan ahead not my game only stagnation,

Every penny I earn goes toward elation,

The mirror reflects a wicked smile,

I stare and stare for the longest while,

Mile for mile it seems to expand,

The width of a hand blown into sand,

A darkness descends the shroud deepens,

A box to confine this rattled soul,

Too late to realize that heavy toll