Inner Torment

Sometimes I just sit & laugh,

At how funny it is the tragic path,

Humorous at the times I miss,

So new to this stumbling ruinous,

I laugh I cry some days I want to die,

At the bottom of a pit I refuse to submit,

I raise my head and force a smile,

Focus on good thoughts for a while,

The evil persists begging to slash my wrists,

Derisive demons dwell deeper down,

Soothing suicidal sin cements sound,

Waves wash waxing will wither wind,

Voluptuous vortex vex vehement viral,

Tales to torment till timber tranquil

Wedding Song

Walk the aisle with glowing smile,

Sacred holy of love's eternal glory,

Dressed in white angelic light,

Stars will twinkle ever so bright,

Vow to love with all of the above,

Spread your wings and exchange rings,

A toast to honor these living dreams,

Woven together with diamond seams,

Share a kiss and dance in bliss,

The first day of a beautiful song,

Two hearts entwine forever young

Chaos

Abdicate this bloody throne,

Sons take the reins alone,

Honeyed words from snakes in the grass,

The youngest speaks true but it seems crass,

Banish the truth it offends to hear,

Watch as hope walks out all held dear,

The snake slithers up your spine,

Snaps in half hapless decline,

A warlord who trampled enemies no mercy,

Expects his kin to prove themselves worthy,

Ghosts from the past rise up to claim,

All the riches are sold as well as fame,

Try to retain a fragment of respect,

Those once trusted keep you in check,

Pick apart your flesh while you still live,

Taken for granted all your flesh did give,

One by one the allies disappear,

Till you are confronted by your greatest fear,

Seek refuge in lands once conquered,

Evil sons rally to sow their dishonor,

The clouds loom ominous as death approach,

A wicked wind spawns demon reproach,

Walls tumble as the fortress burns to ash,

Sole survivor with no means to crash,

Madness stricken the enemies will spare,

Desolate dirge to sing in despair,

Apparitions of foes once slain arise,

Tear at your mind like carrion flies,

A beacon of light as the good son takes flight,

Task to reunite with a father in plight,

Armies will rally to seek for blood,

A sniper reaps doom with drowning flood,

The house collapses as everyone dies,

A blind man on the precipice with torn out eyes

Gem

Time of my life I wonder,

Will I ever see end of thunder,

Think back when I had that chance,

As if I was ready at a glance,

Too naive to see pattern delicate weave,

Slipping as always to find brighter byways,

Always drifting ever sifting for that gem,

Us or them a turbulent bitter end,

Eclipse existence with my pen,

Risk to believe why or when,

Drop of a hat with climax zen

Alias

Measure the width of a fallen list,

Add the spice to splice my wrist,

Rotten as it screams for attention,

Ignore the pain I focus intention,

Sight catches a beauty from afar,

Stumble clumsy get hit by a car,

Or a train it seems to smash my dreams,

Obliterate that tiny shred that's left,

Erase existence I laugh at the prospect,

Insane instead I choose to be,

Walk happily as the thoughts lash insanity,

Rock back and forth with a macabre rhythm,

Death is my wingman we travel the living,

Send a greeting but it wilts and dies,

Slash my tires the wheels spark lies,

The road narrows as I swerve off course,

Fight for control but it just gets worse,

Take a breath and assume new identity,

Misdirect preconception reality,

The world is my oyster no denying me

As I sit

Long ago I dealt in sorrow,

Task was clear easy to follow,

The day grows gray the longer I stay,

How strange I think of her still,

Knew so little yet my mind won't relent,

Take for granted all the time I spent,

Her thoughts are whispers evermore,

Dwell on wrongs or rights that soar,

The memory leaves me in a perilous state,

As if I can rekindle the sting of late,

Why must I sit in contemplation,

I ask the meaning of brief elation,

Ever so fleeting but I will never stop feeling

Once upon a death

Arms pinned I wear this jacket,

Threat to self in every facet,

Wear it now with gaping smile,

Cross the mile with ember trial,

Insane of thought I act distraught,

Dwell on have not but not what I've got,

The fire will burn to scorch all I've wrought,

Fester within to consume all my sin,

I see the world with crystal clear vision,

Blind to self with death disease ridden,

Fading faster as the day grows old,

Future unknown as the story is told